Stepping Out

I started this blog over 5 years ago when I joined SecondLife. I wanted to share what I learned AS I learned and more, I wanted the folk who knew me to understand the joy and pleasure I derived from my existence in a virtual world. As I’ve mentioned many times before, my experiences as an SL avatar have become inextricably tied to my sense of self, no matter in which reality I find myself. I am Ahuva and Ahuva is me. And for that, I am eternally grateful.

I have a lot of things I’d like to say beyond my experiences in SL. I’ve done that before, but only intermittently. Now that so much of my work life is spent in community and social media, I find I have less time and energy for the things I enjoyed in SL. I am sorry for that – not being in SL more. But I am oh so very happy how both the who I became and what I learned in SL formed the “I” that I am today. From toying with my appearance to throwing myself under the bus to building and scripting and evenings at Tribeca and enjoying live music….. all of that brought me to the person who could step out for new adventures and experiences and growing in the world beyond SL.

One of my responsibilities in my current employment is to support someone in his blogging. He’s never blogged before. When I first met him, he thought the whole concept of “being social” at work was ill-advised. He sees things a bit differently now. We’ve discussed blogging: what do you say, how do you say it, how much do you say, how do you respond to people responding to you. I’m envious. I don’t think that blogging for him will be what it was for me. Different environments, different goals. But he’s finding his “voice” and he’s communicating what he wants to say and I – well I’m glad for him and I miss doing that too.

So I want to come back here. I’ve thought about what I might post. Most of what I want to say comes under the heading of “gee, I’ve really learned a lot in my life, come a long way, and I’d love someone to learn from what I say without having to learn it the ‘hard way’ as I did”. Blogging on that subject matter sends up warning flags in my psyche. I’m not sure I can do that. I’ve thought about writing a haiku a day. A coworker asked: how MANY days? Good question. “Every” day is a bit more commitment than I think I want. I thought about going back into SL regularly to do SL blogging. Again – probably more commitment than I can manage at this point.

I don’t know if or what or how I will share my “blog voice”. But this is a start. No, a reboot. *grin* Operating system update……